Monday, August 3, 2009

In the very beginning

Last fall when we first started trying to get pregnant, I decided to keep a journal for our baby to be. Little did I know that there would be so much to fill the pages with at the time! I was re-reading it and thinking about how far we've come since that day in October...

My beloved child,

This is my first entry in this journal and I feel like it is a good one to start with. This morning my devotional was about the night that Mary gave birth to Jesus. I can only imagine how amazing it must have felt for her to hold her son, knowing He would one day save the world. I can't help but wish that I was there to see a young mother hold her tiny baby, in awe of how something so tiny can make your heart so full. Even today, Jesus and his many blessings make my heart so full I feel like it is overflowing out of me. I pray that one day you will know the joy and peace of knowing Jesus as your savior. He is the best thing that ever happened to me and I can't wait to tell you of His great love.

I need to tell you here that I don't know if you are even growing inside me yet but it doesn't matter. I know that I love you so much already. I want you to know that I loved you more than I can even begin to say before you are here. I dream of what it will be like to carry you and to feel you grow within me. I long for the day that I can hold you in my arms and kiss your sweet face. I know that as you grow up, we will have our differences. We will fight over stupid things that seem so important at the time. Never for one second do I want you to doubt how much I love you. There is nothing on this earth that could ever make me love you less. It is one of the reasons that I am starting this journal for you. I want you to be able to look back and see how much you were loved from the very beginning. I can't wait for the day that I get to look at your tiny face and whisper those words to you. It can't get here soon enough!


Abba Father we praise you! We thank you for walking along side us and lifting us up when we stumble. We thank you for healing Alaina and for carrying our burdens when we could no longer bear them. We thank you for blessing us with an incredible amount of support from loved ones and from those that we have never met. Her story is an awesome testament of your love and we give you ALL the glory!


Hailey said...

You are such an incredible Mommy, Stephanie. Alaina is so very blessed to have you. I am so very, very grateful that God chose you & Scotlon to be her parents.

I love you!

Ames said...

It was an honor to be with you on Saturday and I can't thank you enough for the time we were able to spend together. My offer still stands... just let me know. God has amazing, AMAZING plans for all three of you! What an awesome journey your lives have taken and what an abundant love does our Father give us!

I love you!

Robyn said...

"For I know the plans I have for you, not to harm you, but to prosper you and give you hope and a future" Jer. 29:11. What a testamony to the Lord you are, Alaina. May His name be praised!!

You are loved and adored!!

Christen said...

What a blessing... wow- I'm just in awe of what God has done over the last month!

I love that letter and Alaina will treasure that! One day... after she's grown and you have supernaturally become smarter than when she was a teenager... :)

Melissa said...

That is so awsome that you are home with your little girl. I got goosebumps reading your post on how you guys kept looking in the backseat on the way home, brought back memories of when we brought our daughter home from the NICU. Enjoy being home with your sweet miracle!!

noahandlylasmommi said...

That was too sweet. It is amazing how much we can love our babies before they have even been created.